what makes you think that i can move on, when i’ve been in love with you?
i guess you’ll never know my true feelings about the matter. i can’t help myself, wanting to love you the way i used to. but i can’t have you anymore…you’re beyond me and i can’t bear to change that. i’ll always love you. i made that promise, and that’s one i’m not willing to break.
okay i am much better. hahaha, i love my boyfriend.
so, sure he lives like 5997528675098729686459 miles away. and sure, he’s boring on skype ;), but he makes me the happiest i’ve ever been. except for the fact that i miss him beyond belief. but that’s okay. i think i’m willing to hold on a little longer. and God’s got a plan that i’m going to carry out no matter what. i’m excited to find out what that plan is. I LOVE LIFE. but i really really have to get on my reading for AP english 11, or i might fail. which would be bad. ehhhhhhhh, kelsey later, maybe (:
so, i have a boyfriend finally. but he lives across the country. what am i thinking?
i know God’s going to work everything out, eventually, but i still don’t know how i’m going to deal with this distance. and that makes me depressed. why is it, that as soon as i get what i want (a boyfriend), i want the single life again? someone please answer that for me. i want to go to movies with boys and flirt and maybe have a few things on and off. either that, or a boyfriend that actually lives here…that i can do boyfriend-y things with. (don’t think dirty…hahaha). but no, i’m stuck with a boy i absolutely love in colorado, another that i wish things would work out with in georgia, two here that i might be interested in, and a whole lot of missing one. WHY. if you see this tyler, let’s talk. i love you but this is confusing me.
“You know, you know, you know I’d never ask you to change. If perfect’s what you’re searching for, then just stay the same. So don’t even bother asking if you look okay, you know I’ll say: when I see your face, there’s not a thing that I would change, ‘cause you’re amazing just the way you are. And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while, ‘cause girl you’re amazing just the way you are.”—Bruno Mars